My mind's in the state of a great turmoil.
I feel mentally deranged. I need help.
I dont need depression again. Please.
It had always been me since when i was a child.
Why me? Why?

It got me thinking to a point when i couldnt even
think of anything else anymore.
When i looked at myself in the mirror, I felt degraded.
Im a failure.
A complete fool.

The only word to complete myself is,
No - Hoper.

Im a failure in
academics,
work,
what else then?

Everything is cooped up in my mind.
& i dare not even talk about it to anyone for fear
that ille ruin their moods.
It has always been like that.

Sometimes when i say something to my aunt,
she would misunderstand and a problem will be formed
thus ruining her mood and we'll quarrel.
And thats why nowadays, i keep everything to myself.
Im not gonna utter anything to anyone.

I dont mind getting depression.
As long as i dont hurt the others, im good.
This is the only platform where i could release some of my thoughts
without having anyone to listento me.
This platform has been my sole companion.

Now, let me just release those tormented tears in silence.

I bid you farewell.

Dark Blessings upon Thy. 11:30 PM