Im back to having my appetite. But it's not that huge.
Nevermind. Little steps at a little time.

Id like to say a big THANK YOU to everyone.
Rina, Syazwan, Chistopher, Syirr, Liyana, Erin, Louis.
Thank you so much.
You guys know.
Appreciate it much.

(:

Dark Blessings upon Thy. 1:42 PM

It not only me who needs a job. Even Satan needs a job.
Plus, everything is falling out of place.

Its all different.
Yes. A total change. Everything's changed.
The world's changing. Humans too.

Everyone's changed, but we dont really notice the changes,
even if it is in ourselves.

Do we really have to do this to ourselves?
Do we really have to do it to the others?
Hmmmmmm.

The universe is revolving as i type.
By then, it'll be too late to amend things.
We will all die and there'll be no time to say those words.
Everything will be gone. Forever.

The hatred,
The sadness,
The happiness,
The agony,
The dissapointments,

The Good & The Bad.

With just a simple snap of the fingers.
Bam! All's gone.

You dont have to find the moral to this post.
As, this is what im currently feeling about the world right now.
Everything's just rushing into my head like the fast current of a little stream.

My mind's like a worn out tyre.

Goodnights.

Dark Blessings upon Thy. 2:30 AM

Im distraught.

Im sleepless.

Im in constant paranoia.

I cant seem to think properly now.

Everything's going to fast, life is in a blur now.

I have so much things to say but i cant and i wont.

My heart is beating so fast its as if it has been in a race.

Those dreams, it has been getting to me.

Eating me inside out.

I need strength, but i dont have any.

I need positiveness but all i get is negativity.

My dreams are running my life.

My life is running from my dreams.

Chaos.

Everything is in total chaos now.

And i cant even do anything about it.

Help.

I need Help.

Dark Blessings upon Thy. 3:33 AM

Lately, ive been having wierd dreams.
Everyday night. Well, not Night, but everytime when ive fallen asleep.
If only, there's a reason for all these dreams.
When i wake up, it makes me feel so foreign.
I dont really know how to put it. Its just too wierd.

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I dont know what dream im gonna be having tonight.
Hope that it'll be a good one, or just let it be dreamless.

Dark Blessings upon Thy. 12:05 AM

Dark Blessings upon Thy. 6:24 PM

hello. im tired. bye.

Dark Blessings upon Thy. 6:06 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME,

Being 18 is not much of a difference.
There's more to come.
Responsibilities, future, health and many others.

Someone is not here to celebrate it with me this year thou.
Its sad. How i wish i could go back to the past just for a while.
& celebrate it with him.
Im 18 now, and im sure he knows that.
Im sure he knows how much misery ive been thru too.

I miss you Grandad.
I really do.
I love you.

& thank you all so much for the wishes.
Love you guys.

Dark Blessings upon Thy. 2:02 AM

HI IM RAE AND IM CURRENTLY LIVING IN THIS SHITHOLE AND WAITING.
TOMORROW'S MY 18 BIRTHDAY AND I DONT EVEN FEEL HAPPY.
NO, NOT ONE BIT.
NOT AT LEAST EXCITED.

NOONE IS HERE TO CHEER ME UP.
I DONT NEED PRESENTS TO CHEER ME UP.
I DONT NEED MONEY TO CHEER ME UP.
I DONT NEED ANYTHING TO CHEER ME UP,
EXCEPT FOR SOMEONE TO BE RIGHT HERE.

I CANT SLEEP.
I CANT DO ANYTHING.
SLEEPING WOULD ONLY COST ME TO HAVE THOSE NASTY DREAMS
WHICH WILL KEEP ME AWAKE.

IF ANYTHING WERE TO HAPPEN TO ME, IM NOT AFRAID.
WHY SHOULD I , WHEN I KNOW THAT I DESERVE TO HAVE IT COMING.

JUST SHUT UP AND BUZZ OFF.

Dark Blessings upon Thy. 3:17 AM